OF COURSE AT MIDNIGHT I’M LITERALLY ON A PLANE 😩🤦🏽♀️ but CHEERS TO 22 🎉💋 📸: @digitaljay_
𝘾 𝙃 𝙐 𝙍 𝘾 𝙃 𝐧 𝐨 𝐭 𝐞 𝐬 I went to a church retreat this weekend. I was so exhausted the entire time. I couldn’t stay present in any moment. I didn’t have any energy to worship. My mind barely processed the messages. I was tired. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I came home today and drove to @peoplechurch to catch the night service. I felt defeated and depleted and flat. I closed my eyes to worship. I said “it’s just you & me”. Please God fill me up. Please God meet me here. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The sensation of the Holy Spirit is hard to describe. My body gets hot. I can’t stop fidgeting. My knees feel unstable, my body wants to drop to the ground. I get tingles. I can’t really think, I’m just there receiving this energy that makes me feel heavy & light at the same time. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Sometimes God makes me wait. Sometimes I have to get so desperate, I’m begging for it. Sometimes I just have to ask. God knew I had no energy to beg today. After the first song He was there. He carried me through that hour & lifted the burdens of my week off my shoulders one verse at a time... when I drove home I was finally light enough to smile. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Here are some of my biggest takeaways from today’s message: ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ * We wrestle with God & what He’s trying to give us because we don’t feel worthy * What is your standard for receiving? Many of us limit our receiving to only our NEEDS, but God is capable of fulfilling our WANTS * We are in God’s economy, not the worlds economy * We can be good at receiving one thing but not another (love, forgiveness, generosity, compliments, etc) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ How was your Sunday? What is God doing in your life? What has God been trying to give you, but you’ve been struggling to receive?